Saturday, November 27, 2010

Searching for Self-Acceptance

I just watched Eat Pray Love earlier today, and it made me feel inspired to write about some of my personal thoughts.  Most of you know that I'm not very good at sharing my personal thoughts and opinions. I know that sounds sort of silly considering that my blog is a place where I am the sole author, but being truly honest is something I have struggled with for many years. I started this blog about a year ago as a form of therapy for myself. I had just learned that I had a lifelong illness, and I needed a place to escape to when things in my life became too heavy to bear. 

Lately, I am beginning to realize that I have changed as a person since last year. I endured some of the hardest moments in my entire life during this past year. I dealt with struggle and strife in my family. I have made some very personal decisions in regard to my religious views. All of this has altered how I think about the world at large. My perception of life is completely different. During all of these transformations in my life, I struggled to keep my blog moving in the right direction. I slacked off in my writing sometimes, and allowed my inability to write make me feel guilty. When I felt inspired to write, I would find my mind clouded with the most critical thoughts. My inner critic has been hard at work this past year. 

I imagine my inner critic as a very short and chubby man who sits on the inside of my eardrum with a bullhorn in one hand and a bucket of fried chicken in the other. My inner critic loves to point out my flaws. He takes great delight in telling me that I'm not good enough. He know exactly what to say to make me feel like my life is empty and meaningless. I haven't conquered my inner critic completely. He still pops up when I'm having a low moment in life, but I have started to counter my critic with a voice of positivity and self-acceptance. I tell myself that while I'm not perfect, I'm still pretty wonderful just because there is no one else out there like me. 

I decided to finally write about my illness in detail. I have kept all of my painful experiences to myself since I began this blog in fear that I would drive away those seeking positivity. I have a deep-seated fear that if I ever mention my personal problems, people will think that I'm just seeking attention and judge me because of it. I'm starting to realize that some people are going to judge me regardless of what I do or say. They will make their own assumptions about who I am. Some people aren't going to like what I have to say. There are going to be people out there who will never be able to understand what I'm all about...and that's okay. 

While I'm still dedicated to being a positive force, I'm also trying to accept my grumpy side as a part of who I am.

Self-acceptance is what I'm all about right now. 


Friday, November 26, 2010

My List of Thankfulness!

Hello Lovelies!!

I hope that your Thanksgiving was filled with a million reasons to smile!

I was planning to post this blog earlier, but I spent most of my Thanksgiving covered in benadryl gel. My cat accidentally scratched me up yesterday and I've been covered in hives ever since then. The weirdest things always happen to me. 

My List of Thankfulness!!

I'm Thankful for: 

♥ My sister Laurie
♥ My Mom
♥ My brother Topher
♥ My Grandparents
♥ My Boyfriend Zeth
♥ My Cousin Alex
♥ My Friends
♥ My Dog George
♥ My Cat Apollo
♥ Coloring Books
♥ Our Financial Security
♥ Chai Tea
♥ My Cozy House
♥ All My Favorite Songs
♥ Movies
♥ Our Freedom
♥ Comic Books
♥ Silly Faces
♥ Strawberry Milkshakes
♥ Snuggling
♥ Sailor Moon
♥ My iPhone
♥ Soft Cardigans
♥ My Comfy Bed
♥ My Grandfather's Recovery
♥ Those Days When I feel Well Again
♥ Swingsets
♥ My Life

And a million other things! 

I'm bursting with thankfulness!!

What are you thankful for??

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Sick Day Essentials

Being Sick is NO fun!

I have the worst immune system in the world. If there is any type of bug or virus going around, I will catch it. 

Here is a list of my SICK DAY ESSENTIALS:

A warm cup of tea

Plenty of tissues

Fuzzy slippers to keep your feet warm

Lots of fluids like orange juice!

Chicken Noodle Soup

Lots and lots of Disney movies to keep you occupied!

Someone fuzzy to keep you company


Sunday, November 21, 2010

The Little Things That Make My Heart Smile

Hello, Lovelies!!
Hope you're having a HAPPY day filled with smiles!!

The Little Things That Make My Heart Smile:

Strawberry milkshakes!

♥ Rose gardens

♥ Book stores!

♥ The colorful leaves of Autumn!

♥ Robin's Egg Blue! It's one of  my favorite colors!

♥ Peanut butter and jelly sandwiches!

♥ Doctor Who marathons! And David Tennant! 

♥ Cute cut-out people chain!

♥ Sour worms!

♥ Pancake brunch with my Love!

♥ Seeing the first of the Christmas lights go up in my neighborhood!

♥ Coloring Book Club! My friends and I get together to color at a coffeeshop! It's so much fun!

♥ The smell of freshly baked cookies!

♥ Darren Criss on GLEE!!!

♥ Starbucks trips!!!

♥ Going to see Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows at midnight with my sister! We had soo much fun!

♥ Stress baking!

What Makes Your Heart Smile?? :)

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Feeling Magical

This makes me smile! 

"Magic is believing in yourself; if you can do that, you can make anything happen." ~Johann Wolfgang van Goethe

Hope your week is MAGICAL!


Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Photo Fun

Hi Sweeties!

It's been a while since I've posted any of my photos! I had A LOT of pictures on my camera, so I narrowed it down to my favorites for this post. There are lots of pet pictures, some pics of my boyfriend and I together, and a few pictures of my best friend and I. 

Hope you're having an EXCEPTIONAL week, My Loves!


Monday, November 8, 2010

Little Reminder

Wishing you a week filled with huge smiles,  delicious cupcakes, and whimsical adventures!


Saturday, November 6, 2010

23 Ways To Cheer Up On A Crummy Day!

Hello Lovelies!

I am SO thankful to have such wonderful people in my life. All of the lovely comments you left on my last post really helped and inspired me. Thank you all for being so supportive and encouraging! I'm glad that I took some time away from my blog to just deal with everything that was going on in my life. I really missed blogging everyday, but it was so good for me to rest. 

I felt inspired by my recent bout of depression to compile a list of ways to cheer up. 

23 Ways To Cheer Up On A Crummy Day!

♥  Sometimes the only way to get over a grumpy mood is to vent to someone!! Just be careful who you vent to. Pick someone who cares about you and respects your confidence.

♥  Go somewhere magical and get lost! When I'm stuck in the crummy doldrums, I go for a walk and explore places I've never been!

♥  Take an extra long bath or shower! Instead of just focusing on cleansing yourself, take some time to  relax and breathe. Turn the bath into your temporary sanctuary and turn away all of your grumpy thoughts!

♥  Make a playlist of your absolute favorite music! Kick up your feet and listen to your tunes!

♥  Think about what you would tell a friend who needed to be cheered up! Take your own advice!

♥  Tell your favorite person in the world that you need to be cheered up! Ask them to whisk you away on a mini vacation from your grumpies! The people in your life who love you are the ones who know how to cheer you up to best!

♥  Bake some cookies for your friends or family! Doing something positive for someone else will definitely make you feel better about yourself!

♥  Watch your favorite childhood movie or television show! There is something comforting in the nostalgia! One of my favorites is Thumbelina !

♥  Make funny faces with someone silly! Take pictures! If you are solo, make faces in a mirror! You will look ridiculous, but it inspired lots of giggles! This is something that always works for me!

♥  Write yourself a letter detailing all the things in your life that make it wonderful! Write all of the things you are thankful for! Hide it away to be read on your next crummy day!

♥  Take some time to relax in a quiet solitude! I try to avoid a lot of people on my grumpy days because I don't want to take out my bad mood on someone.

♥  Get lost in your imagination! Often you just need to escape from reality for a little while! Make up a fantasy world where your life is full of adventures and magic (the windmill made me think of Don Quixote!)

♥  Try to doodle in your journal or sketchpad! Sometimes words fail and doodles are a good way of expressing frustrations or anger. They don't have to be neat, pretty, or artistic! Just doodle whatever you are feeling! Scribble if you feel inspired!

♥  Indulge in your favorite dessert! There's no need to feel guilty about this one! Grumpies are a serious condition which deserves a little something extra like cakes!

♥  Take some time to appreciate nature! Fresh air does wonderful things for the body! It's often a wonderful remedy for the staleness in one's life. Go somewhere with a pond and feed the birds bread crumbs!

♥  Have some chocolate milk! It will make your ♥ happy!

♥  Have a tea party in bed with someone who likes to snuggle! Bring some yummy tea, your favorite cakes, and put on your favorite movie!

♥  Laugh!! Have a tickle war! Giggle! Guffaw! Laughter is the arch nemesis of the Grumpies!!

♥  Sometimes you just need to go home after an extra crummy day! Transform your home into a safe haven! It will be a place you can escape to after a day of blahness!

♥  Plan a trip to somewhere you've always dreamed of visiting! Start making real plans to make this dream happen! Positive planning is a wonderful way to cheer up and get yourself out of a rut!

♥  Old school milk and cookies will always do the trick!! Whenever I had a bad day in my childhood, my mom would always have a plate of warm cookies and and cold glass of milk ready for me!

♥  Don't beat yourself up! Everyone has crummy days! You are entitled to your grumpies sometimes!

♥ Things will get better! Just keep that in mind when you feel your worst! The sun will alway comes out tomorrow! I know that's cheesy, but I'm a super cheese puff!

Hang in there, Lovelies!!

Hope you are all having more sunny days and less cloudy ones!!

p.s. My best friend came into town this weekend to visit with my boyfriend and I!! We spent the afternoon and evening together being all kinds of silly!