Thursday, March 11, 2010

My Road to Self Acceptance

I made you some cookies, Lovelies!
They are shaped like hearts to remind you to always love yourself!

Lately, I've been feeling like this ↑

Depressed.

Worthless.

Ugly.

Self-hatred
 

 Some days, I felt like there was rain cloud following me everywhere I went.
I'm usually quite cheerful so this depression was very difficult to deal with. 

I previously mentioned that I was recently diagnosed with a serious illness.  I have felt very shy about talking about it for quite a while. I almost felt like people would treat me differently if they knew.  My doctor warned me that I would suffer from extreme depression because of my illness and the strong medicines I am taking.  Honestly, this just doesn't sit well with me. I'm not going to sit around and tell myself that I should just accept that I'm depressed because of my illness.  

I'm feeling inspired to slowly start talking about my illness and dealing with the depression in a positive way.

Jamie over at Inspired Mess has really inspired me. She is living an incredibly wonderful and positive life while dealing with MS. I would definitely suggest that you hop over to her blog to say hi!

The best way for me to deal with my depression is to practice self acceptance.

Self love seems almost impossible at times.
But I believe that I will learn to love myself if I simply accept all the parts of myself that I may not love (and the parts that I might hate)
I might hate my body because of the illness that I have, but it's the only body I have and I have to accept it for what it is <---this is hard for me to say.

I have decided to see a therapist to help me with my depression. I don't want to wallow in self pity and be depressed all the time. That isn't the life that I want for myself. I want to be strong and brave.
And I want to love myself unconditionally.

Lovelies,
I just want to send some positive vibes your way!
And let you know that I care about you!

You are so amazing and wonderful!

You fill my life with hundreds of reasons to be thankful and happy!

And I'm so glad that we are friends!!


Mwha!!!

♥!!

18 Quirky Comments:

penny threads. said...

YOU are amazing and beautiful! your words here are so powerful and I love you! Seriously, just for coming to terms with your depression and what you need to do to move on...THAT makes you strong and amazing already. keep practicing self-acceptance and love because for some (myself included) that is a DAILY battle and to see your honesty and hope in dealing with that...well that's INSPIRING. much love girlie. hang in there. and i'll definitely be here reading your blog as always. :D

Anna said...

hugs hugs hugs to you!! know that you are loved. always. & that you are beautiful--inside and out!!!!!!

love to you & positive thoughts your way-- your in my thoughts ladybug!
xo-

J said...

It is so good to see you make such a sincere attempt to shake of the depression you are in.
Believe in yourself and remember that all sad times have to eventually pass.
We are with you every step of the way and you have our good wishes to help you get better faster.

María Magnética said...

I just recently found your blog through Gala Darling's. I was diagnosed with MS in 1999. I know where you're at.
By all means, get help to deal with your new feelings, and self-image. I did it and it was good. Also, it helped me understand that my strongest mood swings where due to the cortisone (or other meds) and not myself!
Feel free to contact me, if you so wish. mariamagnetica at gmail dot com
IT WILL GET EASIER, I PROMISE!

Erica Leigh said...

i'm so happy that you've found a way to deal with everything going on in your life! :) don't let it get you down. we'll all be here to help you get through the highs & lows!

<3

Tara Melissa said...

Hi there! I found your blog via twitter.

Just want you to know that we're all rooting for you. I'm so happy you are finding a way to reignite the light in your heart, so the cosmic solar system of your mind continues to swirl! (Ahem. Maybe I need my morning tea.)

But anyway, do you. Don't be afraid to ask for support or just a friendly ear to listen. We're souls on the internet, but we're human, too...and we care. <3

-Tara

Jamie said...

Oh, sweetie! I know your feelings so very well!!! If you ever want to talk or vent or anything, I'm always here for you!!!!! I'll be praying for you. It's a very "down" week for me too. Hang in there! Sunshine is coming again!!!! xoxoxo

Lindsay said...

Hang in there beautiful!!! I got your card today and it made me smile like this :D :)
I hope you have an amazing awesome super fantastic weekend!!!!
love ya!
xoxo,
Lindsay

AVY said...

Darling picture, sitting in the bag.

Amy Renee said...

I am so sorry you have been depressed. So glad that you are taking steps to face and deal with it. Your cloudy days will be clear and sunny again!

LovelyLor said...

You are always so sweet! I'm glad you were able to turn around from feeling icky! You are a wonderful gal!!

Kitty Moore said...

Hi - nice to meet you. I came over via Dan's blog and I'm really pleased that I did. You are a beautiful person (inside and out)with real strength. In short, you are inspirational. Hope you don't mind me following along on your journey.

Kitty x

Alexandra Mason said...

I hope you have a wonderful weekend xxx

Kato said...

You are stronger than you know. Just from this post I can see that.

Thank you, thank you, for being brave enough for to say all that you have in this post.

You are wonderful! xoxox

10Yen said...

You are and always will be brave and strong jacque! It may not feel like it someday's and there will be days you will just want to sit and cry. Give yourself that day to cry because you have 364 other days to be happy :) *hugs* You have inspired many people including myself to be better people. Don't forget that! For posting this post shows you have immense strength *hugs*

Cherry Red Studio said...

needed this more than you know! i am dealing with some health issues and self esteem too lately and have dealt with depression for much of my life. nice to have a reminder to lighten up a little :)

Sonishka said...

I found your blog today and had to follow you! im on a positivity quest after a break up as I want to turn my life upside down and make it awesome and forget about everything! thank you for blogging xox

Andiepants said...

I too succumbed to depression and have rediscovered that writing has helped me in the process. I'm slowly learning about myself and reading onto the many things that can get me out of my rut. I'm so happy I found your blog.
xoxo

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