Right now, I'm creating a holiday playlist on Spotify and snuggling with my dog and cat. It's freezing cold outside my apartment, so I have a small heating pad underneath our blanket. We had a snow storm hit yesterday. It's been a few weeks since I have been able to blog. I have been very sick with stomach upset, nausea, and vomiting. I woke up in the middle of the night on Monday and made a mad dash to the restroom. My husband has been concerned because I never ever vomit. I actually had a no-vomit streak of 16 years. When I was in sixth grade, I was violently ill in my literature class while we were reading Old Yeller. That was the last time I have ever vomited. I'm sorry if that is a disgusting and weird over share.
We found out that I have severe gastroesophageal reflux disease or GERD. Sounds pretty gross. It's actually quite painful. My stomach is constantly at odds with anything and everything that I eat. I also struggle with a constant sore throat because of the constant reflux of acid. I have always said that being stomach-sick is the worst kind of sickness, so it's needless to say this bout of GERD has been plaguing my existence lately. I have been taking some new medicine twice a day to help with the nausea, stomach upset, and acid reflux. I have actually lost about 20lbs due to a less acidic diet, more water intake, and a lot more exercise. On top of everything, my job is extremely physical.
So, I completely failed at my blogging goal. It's a disappointment, especially because I am extremely hard on myself. I compare myself to others, and feel insecure when I don't measure up. I have to admit to myself that I am going to fail, and I will never be perfect. All I can do is move on and strive to be better in the future. One of my mantras is to improve always. There is always room to be better, to try harder, and to work towards being more thankful.
I have trouble fabricating new & original blog content. It's challenging to even begin writing when I have not come up with a focus or topic. I also continuously compare my writing and content to other blogs. We shouldn't compare ourselves to others, but that is something that I have constantly struggled with. My intention is not to complain, but I feel like we don't talk about our insecurities and fears enough. I have found that I am a more confident writer when I stop looking at what everyone else is writing and find inspiration in my own life.
Now that winter is here, I have been consuming copious amounts of soup. My favorite type of soup is Campbell's soup in a cup. I also cannot survive longer than a few weeks without a good bowl of cheddar broccoli. What is favorite type of soup??
Hope you are having a lovely day!